The Worst Junk in the World

Aaaaaaahhhh!! *sob*
Ang lungkot ko!! gusto ko i-labas ang nararamdaman ko pero I can't... Today was the capping, pinning ceremony. Inggit na inggit ako sa mga kaklase ko na maka proceed na sa 3rd year, samantalang ako, sa December or sa next year pa..

Kanina, nung nag start ang program, tumaas lahat ng balahibo ko kasi nagiging student nurses na ang mga batch mates ko while i'm still a nursing student. magkaiba yun... nursing student eh yung hindi pa official na nurse, while yung student nurses, student pa pero nurses na...

So ayun.. kanina, while watching them, ang sarap umiyak pero di ko magawa.. dinaan ko na lang sa tawa ang inggit ko kasi nakakahiya naman kung iiyak ako dun diba?
you can't blame me na iiyak ako.... i've been hoping for this day to come. kasi akala ko makasali ako. kanina nga while calling the names, i was hoping for a miracle... na sana matawag ang pangalan ko. pero wala talaga.

inaliw ko na lang sarili ko. nagsasalita na lang ako ng wala sa sense para matakpan ang totoong nararamdaman ko. hahai...

well, i wish them luck. they should do good. i'll be behind them soon... :(

Before, there were 12 finalist. Now, there's only 2 left. And these 2 are fighting for the finals. Who among the 2 Davids would win this season of American Idol?

The two have shown good talents. And I should say ang galing talaga nila.
I was rooting for our kababayan Ramiele Malubay, but unfortunately, nawala na siya
early in the show. So dun na ako sumuporta kay David Archuleta.
Pero nung narinig ko yung kanta ni David Cook. Yung famous na version nya ng kanta ni Mariah Carey na, "Always Be My Baby", parang nahati ako sa kanilang dalawa...

Ngayon, sino kaya sa kanilang dalawa ang mananalo?
Since di naman ako makakaboto since I'm a resident of the Philippines,
it's up to the American's who they choose to be the next American Idol.

Whew! Exciting ang upcoming na finals... Wahahahaha!!! Manunuod ako...

Naruto: Sasuke, I always knew you were alone.
At first, when i realized that there was someone like me, i felt relieved... And I was happy.
I really wanted to talk to you much sooner.
But... I didn't say anything.
You could do everything.
And you were so popular with everyone else.
Since You and I were so different,
I was embarrassed, and decided to think of you as my rival.
I didn't want to lose to you.
You called me a drop-out, and i even felt more embarrassed than ever before.
Even when we becamse team seven, it was always the same.
I was stubborn, and I didn't tell you the truth.
I really wanted to become like you.
You were my.... inspiration.
That's why......... Sasuke: "I want to fight you, too"
At that time, I was really happy..
...that you finally accepted me.
That was the first time you said that to me.
But you and I both know that we don't need to fight each other with our fists.
Ever since then, even though i won't ever admit it...
That's how we became friends.

Sasuke: It isn't meaningless.
To me, you...
....have become my best friend.
Naruto: But you...
.... are really serious about defeating me.
And I can't even tell if you were telling the truth earlier on.
Maybe I was the only one who thought...
That you...
That you are my friend.

Sasuke: You're too late Naruto!

Naruto: If that's the case...
I... am so stupid! Sasuke!

Relevance of the photo:
Sasuke and Naruto always fight. But deep inside, they care for each other because they're friends.
That's the point of the photo.
Even though fighting, they still value each other because they're friends.

Sasuke's line to Naruto on their last fight in the Naruto series coming soon. *have to find it first*



Have you heard about the story of my so-called "best friend"?
Probably not.
Actually, I told the story in one of my GAIA accounts.
This time, I'm gonna share it with you guys.

OK... Today, I was @ the mall coz my cousin called me up, telling me
that my tita was expecting to see me. Supposedly, I have to go to some friends for
some fun. but it made me think that i only see my relatives almost rarely, why pass
this opportunity? When I met up with my cousin,
he asked me to go and play NARUTO SHIPPUUDEN somewhere at the mall.
Since I'm a great fan of the GAME, as well as the ANIME, we went there.

We were in the middle of the game, when suddenly a force pulled my face to look back.
and viola! there he was. my "best friend". He told me that he thought he saw me.
Well, since we're aloof with each other, we just said our hi-s and hello-s.
He sat beside me, looking at the game. I didn't pay attention. I was focused on the game.
Then he asked me if he could play one game that lead to another and another...

I decided to call it quits... I had to get out of that awkward situation with someone I don't feel comfortable with anymore. So me and my cousin left.
I really don't know why I started hating the guy.. We were supposed to be good friends.
I think, there's really a big gap because of common people around us.
INFLUENCES... BAD INFLUENCES AROUND

maybe because it started after his "friends" left me hanging.

though i still wish we'd be good friends. I'm not bitter... *LOL*

Oh yeah, baby!

Today, the whole Philippines experience once again another rally from the motorist regarding the price of oil.

For the past years, the motorists' complaint are the same. "STOP OIL PRICE INCREASE"

Nung papunta na ako sa school, I saw this group of people on the streets waving flags with writings on it. I was thinking to myself, "What's the point of protesting when the government doesn't have time to listen to their pleas? They just complicate the lives of the general public!"

So nung andun na ako sa school, i was expecting there would be no cancellation of classes coz there were a lot of students coming in. So, I prepared myself for the long test in Chemistry. I was really ready to have that long test. Pero, the teacher didn't showed up kasi daw wala daw siyang masakyan papuntang school, which i thought was impossible kasi there were still a lot of jeep in the streets, namamasada.
Almost all the morning classes were canceled, but there were some that still had classes. The school haven't given any memo yet for cancellation of classes so we waited until 9am this morning for the memo. We went to the OSA director to inquire and told us all the classes are canceled including the afternoon.
To some it was a relief. to me... It was a waste of time. *well, honestly, half of me was relieved. LOL*

Naisip ko, "if only those people [protesters], eh namasada na lang... they could have earned money. Di gaya nang mag sisisigaw sila sa streets, wala naman silang mapala, mapapaos pa boses nila..."

may hirit pa itong isang kaibigan ko, "Walang pasok?! Sayang naman!! mahal pa naman ang bayad natin dito sa ateneo tapos walang pasok?! 700 kaya isang unit tapos 3 units ang [subject]!"

Then we decided to spend the rest of the afternoon here in my house... LOL

Picture: The Dance

A few weeks back, the teacher instructed the class to make a presentation: INTERPRETATIVE DANCE of the theories of the Nursing pioneers.

There were 3 groups to present. Ymer's Group, Karen's Group and Miko's Group (my team)

Each group were given a specific theory to present.
I won't talk about the other groups.

So my team were to present the theory of Florence Nightingale which is about the environment being a factor in health. In my opinion, the dance really didn't show much about it. But of course, according to Miko, it doesn't matter as long as it is explained well. For 3 days, we practiced so hard. *Ok not that hard. Bwahahaha!* but we practiced.
The song we used was a mix of Apologize by One Republic and the song on the final dance of the movie Step Up 2. The steps were a little bit over the top. Steps I haven't dared try. *LOL*
But since Miko is the choreographer, I couldn't do anything but be at my best.
I did try. It was hard at first but dealt with it. LOL

During the practice, we got the dance. It was good... but during the presentation.... Well... I don't think so... That's my opinion ha! But all in all. It's still good.

The teacher gave us equal scores. Perfect I think... We're all happy!!!!

Before we came into the world, there's our moms.
For 9 months they carry us in their body, sharing everything. If our mom eats, we eat with them. If they feel sad, we're sad. If they're happy... We're also happy.

[picture taken during my mom and dad's vacation in Singapore]

This is my Mommy. My most beloved mommy.
If it wasn't for her, my and my siblings wouldn't be here.
Mom worked hard to have a good family. She worked so hard to keep the family standing. of course with my dad.
But what makes my mom special?

Well, for all my life, I grew up with my mom. When I started school, she was there. When I need something she was there to provide it for me. Not just for me, but to everyone of us. Mom has been struggling for years to raise us. Even though, we usually give mom a headache, she never stopped loving us.


She usually tells us, "Maski panty di na ko mupalit, kay gusto nako unahon mo!" and that's true. She never buy things for herself but she always provide us with what we want and need.
I know sometimes mom wants to give up. but then because she's strong willed, she won't... And she knows we love her so much!!!

This baby is me.
I was about a year old when this picture was taken.

FYI: This is the only baby picture I have. It's not even a baby. *laughing out loud*

I've been searching for other baby picture of me, but never found any. Before, I never thought about it. I mean, it doesn't matter. But when I started college, we were required to have scrapbooks about our life. From Infant to present. I was asking my mom where my baby pictures are but she couldn't answer. Or sometimes, her answers are, "Na-apil to siya sa wedding pictures namo ni daddy nimo. Nawala baya tong album." That's why every time I see someones baby pictures, I feel jealous... Maybe because I've never seen my baby state. I really want to see what i looked like after my mom gave birth to me. Because, even before, I've never seen a single baby picture of me. The one above is a big picture hanging in our wall, so I see it a lot... but that's not enough... =(
Diba nga sabi, "Ang mga pictures, once lang nakukuha. Hindi na pede maulit ang moment na yun."
Pero ok lang... It's no big deal... I just really want to see what i look like when i was still a baby.

I always think the picture above is the cutest pic i've ever seen in my entire life. I just don't know why. *bwahahaha!*

So you guys, you should keep your pictures!

"We were young then. This photo was taken @ Lito Sy Gaisano Mall, Davao during my freshmen or sophomore years at Ateneo."

Associate yourself with men of good quality if you esteem your own reputation; for 'tis better to be alone than in bad company. - George Washington

TOP Left-Right: Miko, Gwen, Pat, Honey and Billey
Bottom Left-Right: Nikki, Me, Vaiden

I was browsing through files and files of photo when I stumbled into this. It gave me a thought of reliving the memories from the past
.
This were my first few friends at the start of my college life. You see, I was such a loner. Always by myself. I eat alone during lunch. I would just sleep or walk alone during long breaks. Everywhere, you'd see I'm always alone. I was never the usual "people" person. maybe because I have a trauma from my bitter high school life. During high school, only a few people talk to me. I don't know why. Sometimes, I think it's because I'm so fat they don't like me. Or the thought that I came from the province that we can't connect to each other or something because they grew up in the city.

I could still remember that fine fateful day when Monna (Honey) approached me and offered, "Kyle, gusto mo sumama mag lunch? Tara!". I couldn't say "no", so i tagged along. I was exhilaratingly happy. "At last," i thought to myself, "i found new friends in college." I just kept quite. I couldn't say anything.


We were at the cafeteria. I could still remember who sits next to who.
I was sitting with Miko at my right, and Billy at my left. Miko and I were already exchanging cellphone numbers. Then i got to exchanged numbers with everybody.
Billy was beside Vaiden.
On the other side, It was Pat and Gwen sitting together. On Pat's left, it was Honey and Nikki.
Heide was still sitting with us then.
She was part of the original. but then later on she can't stand to be with the same people over and over again. though we remained good friends still.

Then and there, I expressed my feeling of having a crush on Gwen. She never took it against me. She never avoids me. She just acts normal and as far as i could remember. She was flattered.
Well, the "barkada" lasted for the whole school year I think. But between those times, we couldn't avoid fights, arguments that would leave me to come and mingle with other people.
We talk behind our backs. Well, it was the usual petty things teenagers do.

Oh how i miss those days laughing with them, eating lunch with them, watching movies with them, chatting with them...
I hope, just for a week... We'd spend time together again.
A picnic, a camping or a night out...
Well, even though we've got our own lives to deal with, I will always treasure them forever.
They were the first gems to light my college life.
Even though, we've got some petty problems with each other, still, I wouldn't exchange them for anyone. If i have to go back to the first day in college, I would still choose them as my first friends in College.