The Worst Junk in the World
Friday, May 30, 2008
I already told nanay about it
I already told nanay about it. Right now, I'm waiting for her response/call that's why I'm so nervous and scared thinking about it. I didn't exactly lied to her, it's just that i had to take it this long to tell it to her. If i say I was just collecting some guts on me, well, you could say it's bull. I have it in me. It's just that my pride gets in the way. I'm afraid of what nanay would think about me after all she'd done for me. After paying all my tuitions and giving my allowance, this is what I'm giving back to her. But I have no choice. I have to tell her. Like I've said, she's the one paying for my school tuition.
I've explained to her in email everything but i think that would be inappropriate. That would be very disrespectful for her part since it's a serious matter and it need to be said in person. or at least on the phone. That's why I included in the message to call me so that I could really explain it to her with my own voice.
Right now, Dad's the only one who doesn't know, or maybe he already knows about it but pretends that he doesn't coz he's waiting for me to tell him. I don't know. I really don't know how to start a conversation with my father regarding this topic. I guess I'm too scared about the truths he's going to throw at me. The things that I don't want to accept because it would hurt my pride. I have my own principles and sometimes ours don't match leading to a big argument (but he's always the winner. doesn't give chance to let us express our feelings). Everyone's already telling me to tell him before it's too late, or before he'll find out from others.
Well, all i have to think right now is nanay's reply.
I've explained to her in email everything but i think that would be inappropriate. That would be very disrespectful for her part since it's a serious matter and it need to be said in person. or at least on the phone. That's why I included in the message to call me so that I could really explain it to her with my own voice.
Right now, Dad's the only one who doesn't know, or maybe he already knows about it but pretends that he doesn't coz he's waiting for me to tell him. I don't know. I really don't know how to start a conversation with my father regarding this topic. I guess I'm too scared about the truths he's going to throw at me. The things that I don't want to accept because it would hurt my pride. I have my own principles and sometimes ours don't match leading to a big argument (but he's always the winner. doesn't give chance to let us express our feelings). Everyone's already telling me to tell him before it's too late, or before he'll find out from others.
Well, all i have to think right now is nanay's reply.
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