The Worst Junk in the World
Monday, May 19, 2008
Going Back To Where I Came From
Since my work here is done, I'm off tomorrow to my hometown. I really don't know what to expect there coz' I haven't been there in a few months now. The reason why I must go back is because of school problem. As all of you know, everyone's celebrating because they'd be able to attend the annual capping/pinning ceremony of the college of nursing of the Ateneo de Davao University. While, I'm here thinking about the future. About what's going to happen to me when I stop school. To make you fully understand, I will tell you:
As you can see, I failed Chemistry before during my freshmen year. Never thought it would take a big blow in my College Life, up until I struggled during my sophomore 2nd semester year I had to take Chemistry again. I had to adjust coz' i had to be in different classes at different times. It wasn't easy but I got the hang of it. Even though it was hard, there was still something about it. I had to meet some people. New people. I even had the chance to be in different division. Well, 2nd semester was fine for me, up until my Chemistry teacher flunked me in the lecture department. I was worried. During the summer classes, I had to take up the lecture again. So because of that, I have to drop 2 History subjects and Economics. Now I'm 3 subjects behind. And because of that, I wasn't included in the tentative list for the capping/pinning ceremony. The division only allows 2 subjects behind.
Now, my problem is how to tell my father about it. I don't know how to start a conversation. But, no matter, I still have to tell him because he needs to know. Just to give him an idea that his son wouldn't be a nurse sooner than expected. Well, at least now, he wouldn't brag about me about being a nurse... I hate it when he decides for me. I really hate it when he intervenes with my life. But he's still my father that's why I have no choice.
The other problem is how to tell nanay about it. Nanay has been funding my studies so I owe everything to her. She's expecting too much of me and I just failed her. She may say it's ok and that I should just do better but no one would ever know what will run insider her head... That's what I'm worried. I know she's mature enough to understand but.... I'm not sure.
Now, going home is in top of my list. I need some time, somewhere far from here. The idea of not continue studying is too much of a pressure to me... I'm afraid of what's going to happen with my life. It's like my whole world stopped because I can't handle it. But there's nothing we can do. I just have to deal with it.
I'm excited to go home at the same time very worried of what would others think that I wouldn't be able to be in the roster list. Whew! But for sure, I will try to have fun during my stay there... I'll be going back next week for some errands. Have to attend to a friend's debut, dinner with KYLJOY and watch a movie, CAREGIVER.
I hope someone would miss me coz right now. miss ko na siya... sobra!
oh yeah... You might be wondering why I didn't mention mom in the entry.
I already told her about it. She's not that supportive and encouraging but I appreciate her not yelling at me. I just hate it when she says the word, "LAX"
As you can see, I failed Chemistry before during my freshmen year. Never thought it would take a big blow in my College Life, up until I struggled during my sophomore 2nd semester year I had to take Chemistry again. I had to adjust coz' i had to be in different classes at different times. It wasn't easy but I got the hang of it. Even though it was hard, there was still something about it. I had to meet some people. New people. I even had the chance to be in different division. Well, 2nd semester was fine for me, up until my Chemistry teacher flunked me in the lecture department. I was worried. During the summer classes, I had to take up the lecture again. So because of that, I have to drop 2 History subjects and Economics. Now I'm 3 subjects behind. And because of that, I wasn't included in the tentative list for the capping/pinning ceremony. The division only allows 2 subjects behind.
Now, my problem is how to tell my father about it. I don't know how to start a conversation. But, no matter, I still have to tell him because he needs to know. Just to give him an idea that his son wouldn't be a nurse sooner than expected. Well, at least now, he wouldn't brag about me about being a nurse... I hate it when he decides for me. I really hate it when he intervenes with my life. But he's still my father that's why I have no choice.
The other problem is how to tell nanay about it. Nanay has been funding my studies so I owe everything to her. She's expecting too much of me and I just failed her. She may say it's ok and that I should just do better but no one would ever know what will run insider her head... That's what I'm worried. I know she's mature enough to understand but.... I'm not sure.
Now, going home is in top of my list. I need some time, somewhere far from here. The idea of not continue studying is too much of a pressure to me... I'm afraid of what's going to happen with my life. It's like my whole world stopped because I can't handle it. But there's nothing we can do. I just have to deal with it.
I'm excited to go home at the same time very worried of what would others think that I wouldn't be able to be in the roster list. Whew! But for sure, I will try to have fun during my stay there... I'll be going back next week for some errands. Have to attend to a friend's debut, dinner with KYLJOY and watch a movie, CAREGIVER.
I hope someone would miss me coz right now. miss ko na siya... sobra!
oh yeah... You might be wondering why I didn't mention mom in the entry.
I already told her about it. She's not that supportive and encouraging but I appreciate her not yelling at me. I just hate it when she says the word, "LAX"
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