The Worst Junk in the World
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
What's Happening?
I watched A VERY SPECIAL LOVE today. I don't usually watch Tagalog movies in cinemas but I watched today coz I wanna see the reaction of people at every scene their going to see. Well, it didn't disappointed me. To be honest, I was entertained at the movie as much as I was entertained at how people reacted to the movie. There were some who screamed at everytime the major characters do the "kilig" moments. I don't wanna spoil your fun so I won't tell you anything about the movie.
So you may ask what's the connection of the above paunang sulat to the title? Well, honestly I don't know. Right now, I'm writing anything that really comes to me from my heart. Not really from deep within. Just writing something that is being dictated by my thoughts. "and i still believe I'm being dictated by my heart."
Lately. Well, this week, haven't really gone to school to much. Had a 2 days absent. though not simultaneously but in total i had a 2 absence at school today and i'm planning on having 2 more. I don't really know what's happening with my life but it just seem that I lost passion on everything I'm doing. I, now, never have the vigor I had before. The motivation of doing something. Right now, I'm much more occupied at staying home than staying outside. My life drastically changed after that petty fight with friends. My social life just went from 90% of total fun to a whooping 0%.
Nothing's exciting anymore. It seems I'm doomed for all eternity. Haha. Not for all eternity. Kidding aside, I can see my future dark. Unless I do something about it. But that's the major problem. I really don't know where to start and what to do about it. I'm getting lazier each day I live. I don't think I have a purpose anymore.
I'm so hooked up with the internet that I couldn't think anything more. I more into the net than in my studies. I practically spend more time in front of the computer, which sometimes range from morning till morning if you know what i mean, than reading my book.
I haven't even opened my book and actually read it. I've got so much plan in mind, but I couldn't make it into action because, I' more focused in making my GAIA avatar to be something much better. Like for example, I was planning on buying my friend a birthday present but well.. nothing happened. the money that was supposed to be used in buying the gift, i used it on something else. I'm a total crap without my friends. My life is in total ruins without them.
I have no one to talk to. I have no one to have fun with. I'm stuck in the four corners of my pathetic house!
I wanna go out. I wanna hang out with friends but they're all to busy to be hanging out with me. It's either they're busy or too much tired to be hanging out with me. Wow! I'm ranting. I'm ranting here. I can't believe I'm doing this. No one reads my entries but still I'm ranting as if there's someone who would give me some substantial information to get rid of my misery.
GOD! I'm beginning to really sound so pathetic! Damn! Even my relationship with my closest in the family is changing. Please. Someone . Please help me out here.
Technically, I haven't slept like a few days all in all. I guess that affected everything about me. My mood, my size, my weight, my habits. Everything. I need some sleep. Some nice massage. A cold room or something. A cold drink. Gym maybe. *haven't been back to the gym for months*
Oh!!! Enough of this crap! It's 2am and I'm still awake. but my eyes wants to close. *Yawn*
so I guess I have to see you tomorrow. Please... If someone is really reading my post... Please leave a comment, a visit to my site or just drop me a message.. a private message. Thanx!
So you may ask what's the connection of the above paunang sulat to the title? Well, honestly I don't know. Right now, I'm writing anything that really comes to me from my heart. Not really from deep within. Just writing something that is being dictated by my thoughts. "and i still believe I'm being dictated by my heart."
Lately. Well, this week, haven't really gone to school to much. Had a 2 days absent. though not simultaneously but in total i had a 2 absence at school today and i'm planning on having 2 more. I don't really know what's happening with my life but it just seem that I lost passion on everything I'm doing. I, now, never have the vigor I had before. The motivation of doing something. Right now, I'm much more occupied at staying home than staying outside. My life drastically changed after that petty fight with friends. My social life just went from 90% of total fun to a whooping 0%.
Nothing's exciting anymore. It seems I'm doomed for all eternity. Haha. Not for all eternity. Kidding aside, I can see my future dark. Unless I do something about it. But that's the major problem. I really don't know where to start and what to do about it. I'm getting lazier each day I live. I don't think I have a purpose anymore.
I'm so hooked up with the internet that I couldn't think anything more. I more into the net than in my studies. I practically spend more time in front of the computer, which sometimes range from morning till morning if you know what i mean, than reading my book.
I haven't even opened my book and actually read it. I've got so much plan in mind, but I couldn't make it into action because, I' more focused in making my GAIA avatar to be something much better. Like for example, I was planning on buying my friend a birthday present but well.. nothing happened. the money that was supposed to be used in buying the gift, i used it on something else. I'm a total crap without my friends. My life is in total ruins without them.
I have no one to talk to. I have no one to have fun with. I'm stuck in the four corners of my pathetic house!
I wanna go out. I wanna hang out with friends but they're all to busy to be hanging out with me. It's either they're busy or too much tired to be hanging out with me. Wow! I'm ranting. I'm ranting here. I can't believe I'm doing this. No one reads my entries but still I'm ranting as if there's someone who would give me some substantial information to get rid of my misery.
GOD! I'm beginning to really sound so pathetic! Damn! Even my relationship with my closest in the family is changing. Please. Someone . Please help me out here.
Technically, I haven't slept like a few days all in all. I guess that affected everything about me. My mood, my size, my weight, my habits. Everything. I need some sleep. Some nice massage. A cold room or something. A cold drink. Gym maybe. *haven't been back to the gym for months*
Oh!!! Enough of this crap! It's 2am and I'm still awake. but my eyes wants to close. *Yawn*
so I guess I have to see you tomorrow. Please... If someone is really reading my post... Please leave a comment, a visit to my site or just drop me a message.. a private message. Thanx!
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