The Worst Junk in the World
Monday, June 2, 2008
Making it Complicated
Remember I told you about me not telling my father about my current academic status? Well, it's getting worse. Many have told me to tell dad about it before it gets worse... but i guess it is worse! The problem is I really don't know how to start a conversation with my father. Sometimes... Well, most of the time, I really don't like to any conversations with him coz he's giving you a platter of cold mediocrity. And I hate that. Sometimes, we just don't connect. We have different views in life. We've got different points that we don't understand with each other.
It's been weeks... no, no... it's been a month since I know about my academic standing. and it's been a month that I have been lying to my dad. I want to stop. I just don't know how. It's easy to tell me to tell him... but it's really hard to do. Especially if you don't have any good relationship with him.
Another reason why I can't tell him. It's because I'm afraid. I'm afraid that certain things may happen. Like, he's going to throw me out of the house, he's going to hit me straight in the face, or the one thing I really don't like... Give the blame to my mom. I don't like mom getting hurt because of dad. It pisses me off... It makes me wanna punch the crap out of my dad.
Whew! When will this be going to stop? I already told my grandma about this. and she accepted it whole heartedly telling me that she understands my situation. Mind you, she's the one whose making me go to school. She's the one whose paying my tuition. I already told you about that, didn't I?
Well, everyone knows about my "BIG" problem except for dad... and i don't know how far this is going to last but right now, I should be enjoying my time while it lasts...
It's been weeks... no, no... it's been a month since I know about my academic standing. and it's been a month that I have been lying to my dad. I want to stop. I just don't know how. It's easy to tell me to tell him... but it's really hard to do. Especially if you don't have any good relationship with him.
Another reason why I can't tell him. It's because I'm afraid. I'm afraid that certain things may happen. Like, he's going to throw me out of the house, he's going to hit me straight in the face, or the one thing I really don't like... Give the blame to my mom. I don't like mom getting hurt because of dad. It pisses me off... It makes me wanna punch the crap out of my dad.
Whew! When will this be going to stop? I already told my grandma about this. and she accepted it whole heartedly telling me that she understands my situation. Mind you, she's the one whose making me go to school. She's the one whose paying my tuition. I already told you about that, didn't I?
Well, everyone knows about my "BIG" problem except for dad... and i don't know how far this is going to last but right now, I should be enjoying my time while it lasts...
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